very odd

this week has been so odd.
very up and down.
wanting to bury myself in a hole one day, then the next having so much energy & not being able to stop smiling.

last night i went out.
to a bar.
in ballarat.
i know right. a tad dangerous.
but i did.
did not drink because i was being responsible and driving home.
but still had a fun night.
talked with a third year mt for pretty much the whole night.
twas interesting.
then went home at 10:30 so i could sleep a bit.
walked into the kitched and was greeted with a mass of dishes.
so me being me, suddenly had a huge urge to clean.
so i washed all the dishes, unloaded the dishwasher, put another load on, and cleaned the whole kitched with some multi-purpose cleaner that i managed to find.
it was so much fun.
woke up at 7 all ready for boot camp.
my day has pretty much been like that the whole time.
very much full of energy.
smiling the whole time.
sort of in love with michael buble.
gah...
and now i'm sitting listening to Next to Normal and wanting to cry.
every single aspect of my life is just flooding all at once upon my heart & head.
some good.
some bad.
wonderful memories of laughter & endless smiles.
issues pending on me at the moment.
missing people like crazy.
pink sequins.
centrelink forms on my bed.
excitement of getting mail for the first time today Yes i was pretty much running round the house in excitement.
tommorow is friday.

but i won't cry today.
i will smile.
take the clothes off the line.
make fish for dinner.
watch A Chorus Line for repertoir assignment #2.
go to bed. keep the routine.
continue being Jane who i'm expected to be.
Plain old Jane with her quirky style & odd sense of humour.
who really has no idea wat she's doing at any point of any day.
and often talks before thinking.
i wouldn't be able to change this even if i tried tho.
hmmm.

well my gorgeous fish who's been waiting in the fridge so patiently since tuesday is getting impatient, so i think i will go cook it.
Keep smiling all.


Till we meet again...